Relationship Woes

I've been with Renald for about 4 months now and between the beginning of it and now, I've been filled with so much fear. When we got back from Thanksgiving, he told me that he'd visited an ex, a really gorgeous ex from my own observations, anyway. We talked and he told me not to worry, even though this girl likes him. Even after all of the talks we had, I still didn't feel completely better about it. A friend talked to him and told me that he deemed me precious, someone he'd hold onto as long as fate would allow. When I asked him about it, he wouldn't say any of that to me and I don't know why. Maybe it's because he just doesn't want me to know any of that, maybe it's because he knows this friend already told me. If the latter is the case, then he needs to know that saying it to me directly would mean so much more

I find myself filled with the same fears as before, that our relationship could end at any time. This normally wouldn't be so scary for me, but there's so much at stake emotionally. He's the first man I've loved in a long time and the first man I had sex with. He was the first to tell me he loved me and I love him, I believe that he does love me. Though I'm worried, because he told me that I loved him more than he loved me. I knew it in the back of my mind, mostly because I do a lot of the work in this relationship and he doesn't seem to care that it hurts me. I put a lot of thought into everything I do for him, but I feel like he never does anything special for me. I don't want anything material. I just want him to do something like skip one night of gaming for me, or just surprise me by coming over earlier than he promises to, or calling me instead of me having to call him all of the time. I don't know what I'd do if I lost him. And it hurts to know that I'm the only one that would care if that ever happened.